... I feel naked. Red is my favourite colour to the point that students at school comment if I'm NOT wearing something red. I never thought of it becoming a 'thing' for me. I just seemed to develop, over the past year and a half, a large selection of red clothes, shoes and accessories.
However it now seems that there is something in my life lacking in something essential that's red; blood cells. I found out last week that I'm anaemic (stop reading now if you don't want to know any more about my health situation!). For about 5 months I've been having a period every other week, and rather heavy ones. Because I've been so busy; first with my dad, then the move, then the threat of Ofsted, I kind of just got on with it all. Thinking that it would stop or I'd go to the doctors when I had time. But I never did. All the time I was finding myself sleeping for most of the weekend. Falling asleep as soon as I got in from work. Feeling low, 'peaky' and having NO energy. Again, I put this down to everything that's been going on.
I'm naturally very pale; but I realised something was up when people were commenting on how pale I was! Apparently I was so pale I was looking almost green. My eyes were sunken and I couldn't feel any sort of energy for anything.
Thankfully last week I decided enough was enough. I hightailed it to the doctor who commented on how pale I looked (!) and prescribed me high doses of iron tablets. She's also put me in for an ultrasound and blood tests to find out why I'm having so many periods.
I am starting to feel a bit better. Within two days I had people saying that I was looking much brighter and perkier (none of them knew about my 'problems') and apparently I don't look like Casper the Friendly Ghost any more. I'm still really tired and spent most of the weekend asleep or slobbing on the sofa, however, I'm allowing myself to do this. I'm not pushing myself. Now that I know I'm anaemic and it's going to take some time to build myself up again, I'm not going to punish myself for constantly being tired. I'm just going to give into it and hope that I eventually get some red blood cells in my system and get back to the Polly of old. And before anyone says it ... I'm not going to have a good large steak! I'm just going to have to nibble on spinach leaves and broccoli!